Just a note to the chat channels I frequent and those who cross-over from those to reading this: when you see me in a chatroom I will have "Silent" attached to my name. I won't be talking in main. Period. I won't be priving anyone either but
will will try to reply to any priv contact initiated away from my end. I don't know how long this will be. Could end tomorrow; could end months from now. It's nothing to do with anyone and everything to do with everyone. My nightmare induced lack of sleep; my slip back into the wrong hours, away from daylight and my apparent inability to deal with my perceptions rationally - all these are central. You might think I am retreating. Maybe I am; maybe I am folding in upon myself for a time. Maybe I need to. Maybe I don't and this is the wrong action. I just feel - if I don't interact in ground group contexts then I can't cross signals and spin into stupidland. Next to leaving again, it's the best solution I can think of. Think of my presence as a sign of life - so you can relax. Or think of it as as a sign that I'm fighting the embedded trust thing in the best way I can think of atm.